But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

26.12.11

We drown them all.


"All you need is 20 seconds of insane courage, and I promise you something great will come of it."


This is taken from We Bought A Zoo's soundtrack.
It's a very lovely movie, very heartwarming. I highly recommend this video, especially if you're one for animals. I'm not gonna lie; my aunt & I shed some tears throughout the entire film. I wanted to give everybody the biggest hug I could give, especially Dylan. He's a misunderstood little kid. Also, it has a phenomenal soundtrack, in my opinion. The opening credits said the music was composed by Jónsi, and I knew I was in for rather an emotional ride - I'm a fan of his work, and it moved me just by music, let alone if it came along with drama, I knew it would reduce me to tears.

This film has taught me many morals. Combined with recent dreams I've had within the past few weeks, which  also contributed to the pool of tears I've created, I realise that I'm not getting any younger. I need to do things I've always wanted to do. I need to do things for the sake of it. I need to do insane things for the sake of it. I need to do every insane thing there is to do, just so it can weave itself into a story. I need to keep going, that even the craziest of ideas need only a little bit of effort and a little bit of faith. I need to explore every inch of the world there is to explore. I need to travel and visit every continent on Earth and start there. I need to explore my mind. I need to let the violent hurricane swallow every bit of my conscience. I need to explore people and how their hands move through shadows. I need to explore their eyes, the midnight in them, before dawn arrives. I need to feel. I need to venture. I need to wander. I need to get lost. I need to live.

I suppose it's safe to say, I'm finally happy; I don't have any problems weighing me to the centre of an emotional hurricane, my friends are basically drama-free, I attended an amazing course that made me realise that socializing isn't all bad - you just need to meet the right people, and I'm pretty much on my way to living my parents' dreams and mine. And what's better than making your family proud and chasing your own ambitions at the same time?

I'm frightened though. When anything good happens, something bad comes after. That's the way of life. We've all been through it. And seeing as the year's been nothing but joy and elation, I'm worried next year wouldn't be as kind.

Some say that you've got to go with the flow, God's decided your fate and He knows where you'll end up, even if you get lost along the way. And for the most part, I'm as relaxed as I'll ever be. But there are some days where you don't do anything but think. Those days come more often than they should, given my over-analyzing brain, but not often enough to trouble me.

But I'm happy. I'm ending 2011 on a high note; and it really couldn't have been better.
So Merry Christmas & Happy 2012.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥