But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

31.1.10

So we'll crawl.


Andy Murraaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

He's so damn hotttt. Christina is so blind! Even with glasses? Girl, are you okay? Or do you need a whack on the head? I'd gladly do that for you ;) 


If I'm not mistaken, he looks sort of like an actor. I'm not sure who. OH YEAAAAAHHHHH! Penn Badgley :)


See the similarity? No wonder I liked Murray :)

Oh. I love him. And he beats Djokovic maaannnnnnnn! ;]

Just for my satisfaction.
He looks uber cute :D :D :D :D

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Lost the hue.


Alya came over again today. BM karangan. But we didn't really do anything. :)

Well, except camwhore of course. But we got retarded photos of each other. And we practised marching.






















We were actually gossiping. So I randomly took the scenery :D

DAMN FREAKING FUNNY! ;D

Loooooook! 
A floating lemon cotton ball ;D
Do you see it? Do you?














And this is to the people who doesn't believe that my tapak kasut looks like this;



Now you believe me? ;p
Ain't it cooool? :D


So, yeah. That sort of concludes my day. Nothing much was finished, but it was fun. Sort of like a play date. I've never had one in yearrrrrsssssssss. I should have another one. :]

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

What is wrong.

Happy 300th post? :D

This is bragging. It took me so long to get to 300. I love my blog :) *hugs*

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

30.1.10

And we'll run.


I just looked through my archive. I was such a different person then. I changed so much. Then I came across a few depressing (it was awesome then) posts. You know, if that little secret wasn't told, the world would be different.

Imagine what 3 words could do.

I know I've changed, and you've changed too.
But did our friendship had to end on a note of betrayal?
Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

Like never before.


Should I go for it?
Cause the teenage-standard-social-rule-book part of my brain says no.

Why now? Why today? Why here?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

He shot her down.


It's Saturday. Three cheers for the weekend. I feel so free. No homework to be passed up in an hour, no homework to be passed up tomorrow, no tuition. I can't remember when my Saturday felt as nice as it does now.

False Impression is becoming boring. I need a chick lit book. Something like "Spud" or "I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have To Kill You" or "Thirteen Reasons Why" or "Speak". I could just read "Pick Me Up" again, since it's one my favourite books, but I already know the plot.

I need to get these four books. I'm getting 'em. I have to. Even though I'm in the middle of reading 5 books, I'd like to own them. They look nice to read. And yes, I know, I won't have a place to keep them in. But it's now I work psychologically. My mother forgives me.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

One thing I know.


Talking with Zhen is relieving. I feel much better. And she happens to forward the best chain mails ever invented. And none of those "you'll die at 5am cause a freaking dead clown from 1698 came out of your toilet bowl" crap.

She sent me the most inspiring chain mail ever created on the face of this Earth. But in this emo mood, it makes me more depressed and makes me want to cry. But I still love it.

Makes me realise (':
Thanks, jie. Ily 

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

29.1.10

My new love now.


I really have nothing to say. My blog will turn emo if this continues. This is not good.

Who can I talk to now? Who can I trust? It's like, everyone wants me to quit. Quit school, quit socially, quit the world. Maybe even quit life. Yeah. That's how you make me feel. So, hon, I'm not gonna be there anymore. Obviously you have better friends than me, and I'd bet my life you'd choose them over me anytime, anyplace. Yup. Maybe I'm quitting being your friend too. Thanks, babe.

I'm still not done emo-ing. My friends would be wondering. Or rather, friend.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

I hope it rains.


I feel sick. And I don't want to come to school. But I've already agreed to get Christina's books if she didn't come.

I want to sleep. And should I go? This is hard.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

28.1.10

And I never wanna tell a lie.


Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen.
They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth.
And it's draining all of me.
I trusted you.
Yeah, that would be my first mistake.
Gone away are the golden days.
So now I find denial in my eyes.
Trapped in by regret.
There's no way out, no way in.
Where I felt the stars explode around me.
Did you forget about me?
Did you forget that I was even alive?
I feel like I've been holding back.
The giving up is the hardest part.
And I ache to remember.
This is the story of a girl.
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world.
I just want you to know who I am.
You're the only one I wish I could forget.
Don't wake me.
Can you see the track of my tears?
All there's left to do is run.
Then you came crashing in.
Everything I know fades to black.
Half the time the world is ending.
Truth is I am done pretending.
Holding onto patience wearing thin.
I can't force these eyes to see in the end.
We were the victims of ourselves.
There was a time I packed my dreams away.
But soon they'll take us down.
And truth be told I'm lying.
Honestly, what will become of me?

No, really.
Do you hear the words I say?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

There's nothing inside me.



I need to call someone. Alya's phone doesn't seem to be on earth. Christina's mother complains if she talks on the phone for even a half an hour. Yvonne is probably doing homework, too goody-goody. Semreeta has tuition 24/7, and will soon be doing homework. Adlina is, well, she'd be talking with her boyfriends. Afiqah would be decorating her book. Sooling would be too busy, she's like the walking dead in school.

I don't know who to trust anymore.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

You had your chance.



School was aight. Need I say more about Puan Shah's class? I needed to get everyone to bring their Geo books tomorrow, which I doubt they'd still remember.

I'm annoyed. Really, annoyed. But I'm not sure by what. It could be Julie in The Biggest Loser. It could be the fact that I'm hungry. It could be because I don't feel like going out this weekend. It could be because you're becoming really lala. It could be because you somehow change, or maybe I've only now just realise. It could be because I'm fat. It could be because I have Agama tomorrow. It could be because most of the topics for the English essay reminds me of my dad. It could be the fact that the Johor TMJ now has a beard. It could be the fact that I'm just tired of everything that's going on in this world. It could be all of the above.

Yes, I'm emo-ing. I don't feel like coming to school tomorrow, and I've got St. Johns marching. I don't think I'm going for that either. I'm just effing tired. Life's exhausting. Puan Shah said, we should'nt feel like that because we've only lived for 14 years. Guess what? I think it's enough.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

27.1.10

Forget how to breathe.



St. Johns was awesome today! We did marching. And apparently, my squad's the biggest, with 13 members. Whoa.

Adlina's coming home with me today. It's her first time at the tuition and she's scared, cause of Ben. Obviously Ben finds the teacher strict, I find her tolerable. She doesn't seem to have a calculator either -.-'

I'm bored.
Blogger is boring, but I still blog. Any reason why?

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

26.1.10

Shine like gold.


All I wanted was to fly.

School was decent today. We had this gotong-royong thing the first two periods, because visitors from the ministry were coming tomorrow. As a result, KH was cut to only 1 period. But I still felt sleepy. Then, IT. Sooling ran away and came to me, after Alya went for her break.

After break, while walking to class, I randomly called Adam Azman and said "hi". Greeting people ain't a crime, right? So, we all went down to the Science lab. Teacher took too long to prepare something, so I ended up spamming Afiqah's book. She & Alya commented saying that it looked like my body was here and my soul was somewhere else. I said it was true. Soon after, I made 2 Terataians into a crossword. It was awesome! :D

At BM time, Cikgu Azwie asked us all to write a certain essay to enter a sort-of competition. He would collect the best ones, bind them and sell it. I doubt mine would be among the selected ones. Alya didn't pass up hers, making her disqualified. Pity. I can almost guarantee hers would the one of the first choices ;)

And so I'm here. I liked today. I really did. :]

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

24.1.10

I'd give everything.



I went to San Francisco Steakhouse for dinner. The chicken Maryland is baaaaackk! (: And the trip would be incomplete if I didn't eat the Chocolate Fondue. If that's how you spell it.

After that, guess what my dad payed for?

PADDINGTON BEAR T-SHIRTS :D

My favourite bear of ALL time :)



Wanna know what it says?



I love the London scenery :D


My FAVOURITE! (:

And each one of then had this cute little yellow tag that said


AWWWWWWWWWW.
How cute is thaaatttt? :]

There was a 50% discount for each, so I managed to buy all three. If I haven't said this before, I've only NOW realised I love all things English. Like, Paddington Bear, AJ Buckley (who's an Irish born, it counts), Fun Song Factory, Merlin and Paddington's House Of Pancakes.

Puan Shah also said, if you were to run away from your house, go to another country altogether. My first choice would be Alya's house. Second is England. ;)























Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

And heavy wings grow lighter.


So, I've only got Geo, Science, Bahasa Melayu and Sejarah homework. Two of which is just note-copying from other people, so it shouldn't be a problem. BM isn't that much of a problem either, I just need to get my grammar straight. It's the Sejarah that's a problem. Guess what I have to do?














Map drawing.
My worst trait ever.

Okay, so it may not be as bad. But then again, when I started drawing it on Friday, I think Christina got fed up or something and she drew Semenanjung Malaysia for me. Aww, thanks kid ;) But now I'm having trouble drawing a zoomed Asia Tenggara.

I'm proud of my Seni title though. Took me both periods to finish. It's probably the best art/block letters/whatever I've done before :)



I've been asking for a new camera of my own, may it be a professional, or semi-pro. But I want one. I shall ask Atok for one - again.

My mother's decided to give me a time limit on the computer, and a bedtime. Usually, I don't sleep late because I want to, I sleep late because I have to. Partly. It's the homework! Blame the teachers :P So, yes. I won't be on Facebook 24/7 anymore, like I am now. Honestly, I can't help but go to Facebook. I'll just randomly open a new tab, click Facebook, then 'X' it within 2 minutes. Fascinating.

I should buy a new eraser. It's dying, thanks to Alya, Christina, Afiqah, and later Xin Yen. Crazy pencil spider-webbing people. And it's also the cause of the almost-tear in my Sejarah book.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥

23.1.10

I like where we are.



I love Puan Shah. Apparenly, she blog hops. If you see this, HELLO! :D

Right. School was sort of awesome today. But the best parts was after recess, where school seems somewhat meaningful :)

Alya has very good taste in books. I'm hooked on her Jeffrey Archer, although I wanted to throw mine out. Does she sprinkle magic dust on her books or something? She promised to lend it to me on Monday. And I've forgotten to ask her for my Kissed By An Angel back. I shall force myself to read False Impressions. Just to satisfy myself. Oh, and I still need to search for my real Phantom Of The Opera to lend to Christina. This is becoming a book exchange o_o


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The most played song on my playlist shot up from 3 to 84. Since yesterday evening. Is that even possible? O_O Dayumnn. I must really like that song.

Je vous aime, mon chéri. Je le veux dire. ♥